After 11 years sober, not even her husband knew about her return to drinking. For a long time, she did not even understand that she had a problem. Each bar she passed became part of the game, depending on whether she could see herself drinking there.
Reverse vending machines allow you to order food without speaking aloud. The first time this happened to me, I ended up vomiting into a toilet. I thought about the rules I'd made and almost laughed at them.
The author was recently released from rehab. During her time in rehab she was frequently the recipient of compassion. The kindness was so entirely undeserved that it felt like grace. We should all pity those who have never experienced this grace.
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